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| 02:24pm 31/08/2009 |
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music: +Gothic Pink+ - Tommy Heavenly6
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I wake up from another dream, where your beautiful face stares at me with more emotion, more care, then I have ever seen from you in life.
Your eyes, the piercing blue that cuts my heart like a glacier, bare my soul without a word from your sweet mouth. My eyes, like glass, cannot hold onto the tears that fall for you. As I curl myself up in someones front garden. The flowers grow in slow motion as I wait for you to follow. But you do not follow me.
As I disappear from the dreamality.
Stepping back into the norm. |
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| Fifteen |
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| 09:39pm 23/08/2009 |
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Victim
Mindless endlessness surrounds my soul.
Desperation fills the void,
My self-doubt really takes it's toll,
A way that leaves me most annoyed.
Piercing through my heart it tries,
The thoughts, and rising from the flesh,
Despairing apple of my eye,
Our feelings simply cannot mesh.
~tbc |
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| 14th |
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| 12:34am 22/08/2009 |
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Blank
My light has disappeared.
Replaced by a wavering candle.
The fog hasn't cleared.
Tear me up with nothing but knowing.
Caught in the arms of a demon.
The angels harsh voice is crowing.
There I am, in the incision.
Visible only to the heart.
I've died to your vision.
Disappointment fails to hear me.
I am second to neutrality. |
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| Poem the Thirteenth |
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| 08:20pm 20/08/2009 |
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mood:  cold music: La Roux - Cover My Eyes
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Nothing
Lying here
In a silent room
The darkness engulfs me.
The silence
Lays dormant
as it takes over my soul.
I stare
at the ceiling
too black for detail.
My mind
is in ruins
as I remember my failure.
I think
over again
How I could have been better.
But then
The tears
take over my eyes, and down.
Down, down
Down, down
Down they fall, down to the
nothingness.
And the silence
And the blackness
Remains. |
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| Poem the Twelfth |
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| 05:31pm 11/08/2009 |
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View
How I deplore
The salacious whore
Who sits down next to me.
How she defines
The way she whines
Is to use trickery.
I do defend
The problems I mend
Doing so carelessly.
Do I resent
The words she meant
Or do I stay caringly? |
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| Poem the Eleventh |
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| 12:21pm 09/08/2009 |
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Regret
I am a nothing.
A hole in the ground.
A shattered soul.
Not making a sound.
I lie here in silence.
Gritting my teeth.
Hoping the world.
Won't suffer beneath.
I love you. Sick with shame. |
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| Poem the Tenth |
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| 03:17pm 29/07/2009 |
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Cup.
My smouldering face,
with the tear-filled eyes.
Can't make the pace
for the endless cries.
The useless crime
reaps no reward.
In due time,
I'll cut the cord.
Starting to breathe,
I'll face the day.
Without your teeth
to smile my way.
No blame will do,
I'm too forgotten.
A shameless coup
will leave, downtrodden. |
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| Poem the Ninth |
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| 01:04pm 22/07/2009 |
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Force
Inside my heart's not going anywhere,
But,I'm forcibly moving my mind forward.
The tears still teeter on the edge at night, and
the urge to pick up the phone still hangs.
But I quell it. I put out the fire.
I lay instead, eyes wide open.
Mind to the ceiling, limbs to the floor.
My personality slips back to me.
Surrounded by pink, and black rejection.
I walk in the sun. My shadow speaks to me.
Staring into the brightness, sun blinded.
I wonder if anything is worth it anymore. |
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| Poem the Eighth |
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| 09:35pm 21/07/2009 |
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Exclaim
Through the tawny eyes
of the window pane.
I feel the sorrowful
Become the insane.
Blue blue days and
black black nights.
Where my emotions
become my plights.
I lie here
with a widening thought,
My true love
cannot be bought.
For I only love you,
and I always will.
Even when it
comes down to the kill. |
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| Poem the Seventh |
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| 03:15am 17/07/2009 |
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Confusion
Crying out silently, and wickedly wise,
I untied my shoes and dried my poor eyes.
Lifting the lid on the small shut out star,
Who screamed out to me from here and afar.
Single and double the messages came,
Until I no longer cared for the dame.
She flitted, she floated, she cursed me a bit,
And all I could say was "insanity hit?"
No longer the wound of the fallen bereaved,
It pierced my ears, hollow, my soulessness thieved.
Feeling thereafter, a million emotions,
And nothing can cure it, not all of your potions.
Lying here, shelled, on the foldaway bed,
My brain, not turned off, siezed and then said,
"Nothing you know, and nothing you do,
Can ever make anyone feel just like you"
<3 |
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| Poem the Sixth |
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| 05:59pm 15/07/2009 |
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Deserted
I live under a rock,
As big as the sky.
Where all the people flock
To watch me cry.
Mounting the steed,
That brought me here.
A painstaking deed,
That fills me with fear.
Feeling the stab,
Of the knife in my back.
People who blab,
Their conscious does lack.
My rock does leak,
With the air of my breath.
What kind of freak,
Should suffer this death?
Languishing now,
And closing my eyes.
With the heart of a cow,
But the brain of a fly.
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| Poem the Fifth |
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| 12:08am 13/07/2009 |
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Sleeplessness
Lying awake, without you.
Face flushed by my own self-loving,
and the blue of the computer screen.
Coupled with my mind, over-thinking,
over-reacting.
The unknown, laid out in front of me.
I stare at it, and want to hurt it,
Instead of it
Hurting me.
Knowledge is lacking,
and of course,
sleep.
Bitterness consumes me. My face
is a permanent reminder,
of how much I need you
here
with me.
A permanent cloud of despair.
Which is only marked worse
by
my
lack
of
sleep.
I
need
your
love.
love.
love. |
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| Poem the Fourth |
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| 01:04am 12/07/2009 |
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Small Happiness
Silence is broken
and words have been spoken.
And with only hope
I know I can cope.
I see you clear now
and wonder just how,
I ever felt wonder
Drag me asunder,
without your pure light
there is only sight.
No sense to have guessing
A person's love blessing.
This little ray
Gets me through the day,
When tomorrow comes through,
I'll have more'a clue. |
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| Poem the Third |
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| 01:29pm 11/07/2009 |
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Rubbing my eyes is the only way
to pull the bliss of sleep away.
The sexuality inside my mind
has been replaced with sign and kind.
Flowing away my inner peace
is a rage that doesn't cease.
Anger, worry, moments of calm
All mixed up with a healing balm.
Are you Ok? Are you alright?
I haven't heard from you tonight.
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| Poem the Second. |
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| 10:40pm 10/07/2009 |
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The Sins of Solitude.
Pry my dead hands, from around your heart.
From beyond the grave, my definite start,
Is clumsy, I trip, I swing, I fall.
I wish I wasn't there at all.
Why do I love you? I ask again,
Because it keeps me calm and sane.
Although the contact dries and wears,
Thinly creeps and wryly stares.
Chewing on a paper cup,
My new-found anger rises up.
For I am not a child or other
person who deserves another.
Watching you with flaming eyes,
Your mouth moves but no sound cries.
This is just a silly game,
Rather the other end of tame.
The phone right now, it doesn't beep,
and in my death I do not sleep.
I'm quite awake, what do I hear?
The sound of nothing's what I fear. |
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| Poem the First |
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| 09:44pm 10/07/2009 |
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A heart disjointed,
Disappointed.
Love is a menacing beast,
Flee to the space,
commonplace.
Bite my heart in the feast.
Hands are wasted,
unsatiated.
Tears are a pointless flaw.
Eyes are flaming,
master-gaming
won't stop the grinding jaw.
~fin. |
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| Chapter 17a - Going back to old friends |
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| 11:08pm 22/02/2008 |
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mood:  creative music: Mirai Arakajime Hou - Kaori Iida
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Hey guys, I found this and it's good to be back. Please continue to read and support me! This is just for fun now so don't take anything too seriously! Ok? I don't mean to offend anyone! =]
DISCLAIMER: I dont own the rights etc, plus if any minor details are wrong (month of dates, month of graduations etc) forgive me but it just takes so much longer looking up every single little detail, as long as the year is right then thats fine with me.
NC17+ (WARNING: Underage)
~Continuing from last post, April 2002~
Starved for attention, a 14 year old girl fell asleep dreaming of her sempai. A long, long day proved to be exhausting, and in her dreams anything was possible.
It was pitch black. A figure sitting opposite her on the bed breathed deeply, heavily.
"Makoto" the voice moaned, as light filled the room and Makoto rubbed her eyes as they fell upon a writhing figure on the bed. She jumped up, startled.
"Yoshizawa-san" she breathed, as she saw her, naked, her large eyes looked up at her and her face was full of wonderment. "Makoto..." her voice echoed. "Makoto...". Makoto sat up and, almost frozen, reached out for Hitomi's translucent body. Her hand passed right through her and she jumped. Opening her eyes, she realised she had dreamt such a vivid dream. Her crush was beginning to overtake her. She looked around and breathed a sigh of relief that no-one had seen this. Although she was wrong. Someone had.
This person stepped back a few inches from the ajarly-open door, and wondered what on earth was going on in Makoto's head.
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Maki was exhausted, this consistent fatigue was beginning to be her demise. She was running through a few songs for her solo album today and it just seemed to never end. She sat down for a second, in the studio, before a solo performance of 'Afurechau...Be in Love' - Her newest single to be released in May was awful. It was the one of the only songs she had sang which she truely hated. It was far too poppy and kid-like for her liking. She wanted to be more grown up with her graduation from Morning Musume and this really wasn't helping. But, like the girl she was, she just shut her mouth and sang the songs. Which is a contradiction of sorts. Country Musume were to be her backup dancers, so she saw the three of them in a corner, almost completely silent leaning against a wall. Maki eyed Rinne and she walked over.
"So whats up? You wanted to talk to me and then nothing eventuated". Rinne nodded.
"Yeah, I'm going to graduate" she said bluntly.
"what!! why?" Maki said, maybe a little too loudly.
"I'm sick of this, we are just consistently being overlooked, and our singles are becoming thin and far between, and I have a feeling this isn't going to get any better. This latest single has us acting like whores, and we can't even use our own members! They have to lend Morning Musume mebers to us?" Rinne seemed mad.
"I just want to go back to theatre, it has always been good to me"
Maki sat with tears in her eyes.
"Goto! 5 minutes!" she got the call from the performance stage manager.
"Does Tsunku know? and the other members?"
Rinne nodded. "But no other H!P members know, I thought I wanted to tell you first, because you are always so kind to me"
Maki nodded and sat quietly. "Thanks Rinne, I know we will continue to be friends after you leave" Rinne smiled.
As Maki and Country Musume went to perform. There was something sombre about the event.
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Hitomi was left with an odd taste in her mouth after Ayaka had kissed her for the first time. It was a lime flavour. She was craving a second dip in the Hawaiians sweet lips. But hadn't seen her in a couple of days. She was to be in voice training today with the rest of the fourth generation, and two of the fifth who had shown special potential. Ai Takahashi and Makoto Ogawa, Ai's voice was heavenly, and Makoto's dancing was to be rivalled. She had proven that in 'Ai no Big Band' where she was supposed to be Hitomi's girlfriend.
She sighed heavily and popped another pocky in her mouth. The depression had officially taken over her eating. All she wanted was to feel better again. But even after Ayaka's kiss she didn't feel healed. She needed a compadre, a person she could tell everything to, that she could trust, but that didn't come easy around here. There were so many debauched liars and suck ups to the producers, that if she did tell the wrong person, it could land her getting graduated far early then she would want. Also working on the Drama, having to act on feelings for a boy wasn't easy. But she blew them all away, proving everyone that she was a triple threat.
In the voice training, Ai Takahashi's voice absolutely blew her away. Makoto's voice was quite low for a girl, but it was also very pleasant. In the window outside the studio, she saw a comfortly-dressed Ayaka slink pass sucking on a lime. She smiled slightly, and she saw Ayaka eye her and smile as well. She accidentelly stopped singing.
"Yossy!" Rika whinged, as she had just threw off the whole group.
"Sorry!" Hitomi said sheepishly as she went back to the start.
Rika looked out the window and saw Ayaka, and looked back at Hitomi. Theres something going on there. She thought.
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Kei kissed Mari's forehead and opened her eyes to the tiny girl beaming. "I have had such a great time with you". Kei's face fell.
"What do you mean? You sound like it's over?" Mari looked sidewards, and her eyes started to well up. "I miss Kaori, I feel like I'm doing something terribly wrong, and I don't want to live with this guilt anymore!" she said quietly. Kei nodded.
"I know what you mean, I miss Yuko too. I mean, this was so fun while it lasted, but if we are going to get guilt, I don't think it's worth it. Maybe we are better of as friends"
"Maybe" Mari said, smiling.
Crossing over to the other side of town. Kaori was lying in Yuko's bed as the older woman took a shower. Kaori felt dirty, this had been going on far too long and she missed Mari terribly. Since she had been seeing Yuko on the side, her and Mari's relationship had been flailing to gather momentum. So, quickly, she wrote a short note, grabbed her things and ran out the door.
Seeing a woman run down the street in a neglige wasn't exactly a common occurance in Tokyo, but especially running for so long. Eventually it started to become a bit of a big thing.
"I did not think this through" Kaori said. Looking down and running into the Morning Musume house. Slamming the door.
Yuko stepped out of the shower, drying her hair, and saw her room in a disarray and Kaori disappeared. She saw the messy note, written in lipstick, on her dresser mirror.
'MISSED MARI. I'M GOING BACK, XOXO KAORI'
Yuko sighed, probably not the worst thing that could happen. But she was going to miss that womans overflowing hair on her pillow.
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Natsumi was reeling, after the past couple of weeks she could not look Rika in the eye after she caught her masturbating on her bed. The awkwardness between them was formidable. After giving the 5th generation a huge amount of advice on how to survive in this house of hormones, they hadn't been talking to her much. They hadn't really been talking to anyone much, they had been keeping to themselves for a long time.
She wanted in, she was wondering why they had so much secrecy and she figured they had taken her advice far too well. She was about to go spy on them when she saw Maki in the hall, looking down. "Oi Maki!" She said casually, running up to her. Just in time, as Maki fainted in her arms.
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Miki clomped down the hall in massive knee high boots, looking for her prey, She knew exactly where to find her. In Shibata's room painting her nails, or eating sweets. She wondered how she kept such a good figure when she ate so much.
Surprisingly, Miki found her in neither of the places. She looked everywhere, until she wandered past the gym and saw her girl running in short-shorts and a crop, running at possibly the fastest speed you could run at her height. Miki leant against the wall and crossed her arms. Interesting. Now she knew why she was so fit. Rika was oblivious to her spy until one of her mp3 earpieces fell out and she happened to hear someone cough. She looked over and her eyes went wide. "OH!!" She exclaimed and she almost fell off the treadmill. Miki laughed. A whole, hearty laugh that made Rika flinch. Miki waltzed over and cornered the seemingly terrified Rika. Miki rubbed one of her arms, and the hot sweat went cold with her goosebumps. "I know you want this" Miki said huskily. Rika looked away. Trying to avoid eye contact. Miki fixed that by nuzzling into her ear.
"dont, someone might see"
"I guarantee you no-one will see" Miki said slowly, then grabbed Rika's face with two hands and began to kiss her fiercely. Rika tried to keep her mouth closed, but the forcefulness of Miki's lips began to make her open up. Miki pulled her close and the two kissed for a good while before her hand slid up to rest on Rika's chest. Rika gasped and slapped her. Miki shook her head and smiled. "You'll get it one of these days" she said, and bit the air. Before walking away in her trademark way. Rika's flushed face was not only from her working out. But she fanned herself and poured water over her face. "This is getting ridiculous" she said to nobody but herself.
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| Chapter 16: Ishikawa Rika no Hametsu desuka?!! (c/w ~Changing the Mind~) |
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| 10:43pm 01/07/2006 |
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mood:  complacent music: Indigo Blue Love - Risa, Reina, Eri
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Mid - April 2002 ~
10:00am -
Large eyes opened to a warmth on the mouth area. A silent scream, and a firm hand clasping over the lips.
"shh! you want to let everyone know that i'm in your bedroom?", the other girl shook her head.
"why dont you just relax?" the stronger woman pointed out, as she began to kiss the sleepier girl. Eventually she pushed her off.
"Miki, what the fuck are you doing in my bedroom and why is it you keep pursueing me like this?" Rika hissed.
"because you want it" Miki said, standing up, giving her a sultry look and walked out. Rika pressed her fingers to her lips and sighed, staring at the door for a few minutes.
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- mid morning -
Miki walked down the hall wearing a loose white shirt and grey short-shorts, she suddenly bumped into Hitomi Saito, "have you seen Rikacchi?" she asked Miki, "i havent seen her this morning" she looked at her nails. "Miki, you really need to get your nails done, they are so short and stumpy!" Hitomi exclaimed. Miki almost laughed, "they do the trick, i think Rika is in her room" she walked away laughing quietly.
Hitomi looked after her oddly, and went to Rika's room, knocking on the door. "Rikacchi?" she said softly, as she opened the door. Rika was lying underneath the covers curled up in a ball. "Rika! get out of bed! its almost brunch!" she exclaimed. Rika gave an inaudible sound before rolling over and holding onto the covers. Hitomi grabbed the doona and tried to pull it off, before slipping and slamming into the door.
"OW, fine! be obnoxious!" Hitomi said as she walked out.
Rika let a tiny tear fall down her cheek before pulling the doona back over her head.
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12:10pm
Makoto, Risa and Asami Konno were eating lunch in the dining room waiting for Aichan, Hitomi (Yoshizawa) walked past to grab some sugar. Makoto's eyes widened and she sighed heavily, Hitomi looked back at her with a look of angst on her face before returning to her room.
"all she does these days is stay in her room, i hope she is alright" Makoto said, leaning her head on her hands. Risa patted her on the back, "daijobu, im sure she is fine"
"perhaps.....perhaps she is having trouble coming to terms with her sexuality?" Asami said quietly.
"Konkon! didnt know you could be so blatant!" Risa said, shocked. Asami blushed.
"Im going to go see her" Makoto stood up, she tried to leave but Risa grabbed her wrist.
"dont do it" she warned, "its only going to make you more obvious to older members, and we will never get the trust and respect we wanted". Makoto thought about this for a moment before sitting back down.
"you're right" she agreed. Aichan waltzed into the dining room wearing a big smile.
"Aichan!" Risa shouted out, waving at her. Aichan beamed and went to sit down with the other girls.
"I just saw Ishikawa-san, she looks terrible!" Aichan whispered as she sat down. "Oh! and you know how we want respect, i know how we can get it" Aichan said quietly.
"How!?" Asami said curiously.
"its called manipulation, and treacherous lies, and i know how we can use Ishikawa-san to our advantage" she said. The other 3 girls eyes went wide. "i heard a rumour...that she is sleeping with that new solo singer Fujimoto Miki, if its true, we can blackmail her into talking us up, on punishment that we tell everyone about her little cavorts" she said.
Makoto let out a huff "this is a whole new side of you Aichan" she said, swallowing. Ai smiled.
Rika walked into the dining room and saw all 4 members of the 5th generation staring at her, her heart leapt into her throat. 'what are they thinking?' she panicked. Aichan smiled at her. Rika smiled back oddly. Aichan whispered something to Risa. Rika took her lunch and walked swiftly to the door.
"Ishikawa-san! Sit with us" Makoto called out. Rika froze and turned slowly, before forcing a smile and shaking her head. "Uh, thanks, but I have things to do" she said, and exited before anyone could say any more. Aichan snapped her fingers.
"drat" she commented.
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"Im so BORED!!" Nozomi squealed. Aibon pinched her cheek, "suck it up" she said, "we cant do anything because we have rehearsals in about 15 minutes".
"for what?" Nozomi said, puzzled.
"For flippin Ai~n Dance no Uta!" Aibon rolled her eyes at Nozomi's forgetfullness.
"OH GOD NO" Nozomi exhaled, leaning her head back "I dont have the energy!!!"
"well too bad!" Aibon said, grabbing her hand, "Lets go!" She dragged Nozomi from her seat and the two of them made their way to the dance hall.
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It was quiet.
and low-lighted.
A slinky figure made her way through the shadows.
"I want you" she said huskily, and slowly.
"uh, i want you too, but this is wrong, we shouldnt be doing this"
"but what is wrong, usually feels so right" she whispered into the taller womans ear. Before hot lips met cautious ones and the seas of monogamy were plunged into the unknown.
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"Fuck you" she swiped.
"WHAT was that?!!" Rika said, her voice changing from its feminine tone to a more surprised, and high pitched tone.
"I said...Fuck you" Miki replied.
"why?!" Rika questioned, shocked.
"because, you freakin told your best little buddy in the whole wide world Shiba-chan that I tried to do this to you, and now the whole fucking world knows, you are going to get it now"
Miki snapped. Before marching over to Rika and pushing her through the nearest bedroom door.
"This is Nacci's room!" Rika said, as she flopped down on the bed. Which was a bad move.
Miki walked swiftly over and proceeded to sit on Rika's hips.
"Oh Miki not again" Rika said, almost giving up, as Miki started to grind her hips into Rika, which gave Rika a shock and she emitted a little squeal, before her face turned as red as a tomato.
"My god, are you enjoying this?" Miki asked. Rika shook her head furiously as Miki's hand went to Rika's neck as she caressed it softly, and yet with authority. Rika purred and then corrected herself quickly. "I am not" she said, while not making any attempt to stop Miki's actions. Miki smirked, before she stopped, got up off Rika and walked to the door.
"what are you doing?" Rika sat up and watched Miki half-shut the door before replying
"just making the game even", before letting out a little chuckle and walking away. Rika sat on the bed, breathing deeply as she shut her eyes. Before she knew it she was touching herself thinking of Miki. She couldnt believe how that woman had snaked her way into her head and lingered there like a Tobacco addiction.
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1:45pm
Natsumi had just finished a voice training session with the 5th generation, who had just come from lunch and seemed very exciteable. She was helping them with tonal recognition, because Tsunku had recommended her as the best person for the job, which she was very proud of, she was assuming he'd pick Maki.
"Girls, one last tip" Natsumi said as she walked out of the recording studio with the gokkies. "Yes Abe-san?" Risa replied.
"dont gossip about other Hello! Project members, at least not in front of me", she drew in closer to the 4 inexperienced girls and said slower and quieter "stuff gets around pretty quick in this place", to which she tapped her nose and began to walk away back to her room. The 5th gen were gobsmacked.
"that was...unexpected" Aichan said.
"Im scared!" Asami exclaimed.
"This is one step closer to our maturing in the Hello! Project, girls, we are going to have to be more discreet" Makoto decided.
They all agreed and went back to their seperate rooms to rehearse and to think.
Meanwhile, Natsumi reached her room and heard an odd noise coming from inside,
"what the hell?!" she said to herself as she opened the door wide and saw Rika, lying on her bed, with hands and fingers in explicable places, and clothes astrewn on the floor.
"RIKA!" Natsumi almost squealed, before a half-naked Rika jumped up and pulled the covers around her. "Natsumi! what are you doing in....your room?!" Rika said,
"oh this isnt happening" she said, before she got up quietly, put on her clothes and passed Natsumi as she walked out. "Please Nacci, dont tell anyone this happened, I trust your secrets" she bowed slightly and left. Natsumi couldnt believe what she had just seen.
"Ahh....i wish it was Maki though" she found herself saying, before looking around to check if anyone had heard, and, mortified, rushing into her room and shutting the door.
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"Yuko?"
"Yes?"
"Where are you?" Kei asked.
Yuko rolled her eyes, oh gosh baby, if only you knew.
"Um, Im having lunch with Kaori"
Well, that was half-true, Kaori was eating.
"why are you panting?" Kei said, weirded out.
"Uh, the curry is way too spicy!"
"Oh" Kei said, "well I'll see you tonight okay?"
"Sure" Yuko said, hanging up.
"You okay?" Kaori said as she raised her head from between Yuko's legs.
"Im fine, but not so fine because you just stopped"
"Oh..right" Kaori smiled and went back to finish her delicious dessert.
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"Do you think she knew?" Mari asked.
"Knew what?"
"That you were with someone!"
"Oh! right! God no, she'll never know" Kei exclaimed.
"I doubt that, Yuko has an intuition, and you know it!" Mari said.
Kei nodded, she knew that was true.
"anyway, where to?" Kei asked.
"ICE CREAAAAAAM!" Mari shouted, letting go of Kei's hand and running far ahead, Kei laughed and they went to have what was to be their first official date.
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Dinner-time
Maki sat down at the dining table, almost falling asleep, she was absolutely exhausted from the training she had that day for her new single 'Te wo nigitte arukitai'. She decided to do something quick and easy. Cereal. That took no effort. She ate slowly as she saw Rinne open the door and walk in.
"whats up?" she said casually.
"tired.just tired" Maki said through a mouthful of chocolatey flavoured flakes.
"I can see that" Rinne laughed, "have you seen Asami?"
"Konno or Kimura?" Maki asked slowly.
"Kimura" Rinne said, "I cant find her anywhere so I thought she might have been hanging out with Rika or Nono"
Maki shook her head. "Sorry, I dont think shes here"
"Well, perhaps I can talk to you then Maki-san? Its important...." Rinne trailed off as Maki snapped to attention. Her tiredness fading.
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Hitomi (Yoshizawa) sat in her room as she took another strawberries and cream from the packet and sucked it slowly. She felt so depressed. WHY did she like girls, WHY did she feel like she was the only one who was going through this, and WHY did people lead her on?
Suddenly, her mobile phone rang, she picked it up. "Moshi moshi" she said, sighing deeply.
"wow, that is not a happy greeting" someone talked in English on the end.
"Nani?" Hitomi asked.
"Oh, sorry, I was just talking with Mika, whats the matter Yossi? You sound so sad!" It was Ayaka.
"Im just a bit down is all" Hitomi said back. Suddenly, the phone clicked off. Hitomi was surprised, usually Ayaka loved talking to her, oh well. She put the phone back down in its place and slowly drifted in and out of sleep. When she woke up, big eyes were staring back at her. She was surprised, but didnt say anything, she gasped a little bit as sweet candy lips were put with hers, and slender fingers wrapped round her face as she responded to the kiss.
"Yossi, I knew you wanted me" she said, almost tauntingly.
Ayaka. Yossi thought. You want me too..........
~TBC
AHHH! it feels good to update. So what do you all think? |
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| In My Dreams. Volume 1 |
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In My Dreams Volume 1.
WARNING: this is rated highly in sexual themes. NC17+
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"On your knees Matsuura" a booming voice loomed. Aya dropped to her knees and struggled with the ropes that were tying her wrists together in front of her. Clacks from shoes that started off in the distance,came closer and closer. Then stopped right behind her. A sharp force pushed into Aya's back forcing her on all fours. It was dark, almost pitch. Aya tried to look behind her but a slap across the face forced it back. a soft hand caressed Aya's bare back, except for the bra strap that stopped the smooth continuity. One flow movement snapped the bra from her as it fell to the ground. The ropes that bound her wrists were making it hard to balance. As one hand that knew exactly where it was going, began to work its way around to Aya's stomach and up to her breasts. Aya let out a tiny little squeak, that showed her fright, yet the warmth that was growing between her legs spelled out otherwise. "Miki..please..ah!" she pleaded for her to stop, but in secret, she didnt want her to. She let out a gasp as the hand squeezed and prodded her breasts. Suddenly, Aya felt Miki's hot breath on her neck, and her nipples that were hard from the pure adrenalin of domination were pressing into Aya's back. Aya shivered, "Give in?" Miki whispered. Aya shook her head. "well, theres more we can do about that" Miki said, pulling herself off of Aya's slight frame. Miki ran a single finger down Aya's back, and proceeded to pull down her shorts, being the only thing Aya was wearing in the first place. Aya heard a snip, as Miki snipped off the shorts. Leaving Aya completely naked. Miki crept up to Aya's ear again and whispered "Give in yet?". Aya shook her head. Miki stood up. "Have it your way" she said, as she brought a hand down and smacked Aya's bare bottom. Aya cried out in surprise. Miki continued to smack until Aya's usually peach bottom was bright pink. "You turned on yet?" Miki shouted in a loud voice. "huh...no" Aya said, with a hint of uneasiness in her voice. Miki knelt down and gently moved a finger up and down Aya's open flower. Aya couldnt help but let out a moan. Miki put her finger to Aya's face, Her finger glistened with Aya's wetness. Aya blushed."your body says otherwise" Miki smirked knowingly. "Give in yet" she said with authority. Aya shook her head. Miki licked her finger.
"fine, your call" Miki leant in close to Aya's body until they were almost spooning. Miki rubbed Aya's breasts with one hand, and with the other, cupped Aya's delicate flower. Aya's chest began to heave as she gasped with shock, but mostly with pure white feelings of pleasure. Miki began to rub the pearl that was found beneath Aya's drenched petals. Aya's breath started to have a melodic tone to it as she felt herself pulsating beneath Miki's determined touch.Her body began to heat up as she felt beads of sweat form on her forehead. Miki rubbed her breasts against Aya's back as she let go of her breasts and used her other hand to insert 2 fingers into Aya's wanting cave, which was flooding with her dew. Aya began to buck under Miki's fingers, which started to pump in and out of her body, her breasts bounced as her body started to spasm. "Uh-huh" Miki said, "you come for your master" she said. Miki's fingers picked up speed, and Aya let out a cry of passion, as white hot pleasure rushed from her centre right up to her mind, making her head swim. Miki took out her fingers and let Aya drop to the floor. Panting. Miki licked her fingers, "See you next time Matsuura" she said, as she smacked her bottom one last time and proceeded to walk away.
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Aya sat up in shock, she looked around, she was in her bed, alone, thank god. She breathed out a sigh of relief and lay back in her bed, Miki?! I guess it wasnt the weirdest she had ever had... She squirmed slightly. After such a dream, she found herself wet and wanting. She looked at the clock, 6am. Time of wake was usually 6:30, that gave her plenty of time to finish herself off before rehearsals began......................... |
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| Chapter 15: Moving along |
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mood: creative music: Chokkan ~ Ji toshite koi wa ~ - Morning Musume
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May 25th - 2002
9:18am
"What the HELL is going on?!" Mai Satoda said as she rummaged through her sock drawer looking for knee-highs. "I have so many pairs of these! i wanted to wear my yellow ones to impress Yoshizawa-san" she said, pouting. Asami rolled her eyes, and went back to reading the magazine she was trying to absorb herself in.
Ayaka grinned and pulled on the yellow socks, she had taken them from Mai's drawers before she had woken up.
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Maki sat in her room, trying to meditate, she had always wanted to be a soloist, so the graduation wasnt scaring her. Or was it? She had been wrapped in a blanket of up to 13 girls at a time, and now she was going to be set free like a bird flying for the first time. She smiled, but it was an uncomfortable, self-re-assuring smile. Until someone burst in through the door. "Goto!!!!!" Mari screamed, "they have DEEP FRIED PRAWNS at the lunch table today!" Maki shook her head.
"but its not even past breakfast yet!" she exclaimed. Mari shrugged.
"Foods food! better come get it before Nono eats them all!" Mari said, running out again. Maki reluctantly got up and pulled on a pair of sweats before heading downstairs.
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11:38am
"Michan, dont worry about it, you'll get more exposure soon" Atsuko tried to re-assure the fretting soloist. Michiyo rolled her eyes "my butt, I was the freaking winner of the original contest, and now there is nothing but Musume this and Musume that! does anyone even remember who i am anymore?" she said snidely. Atsuko was surprised by her disposition. Michiyo was usually seen as a woman of great class and who had dignity, well it was now she was letting her true feelings be shown. "Atsuko, did anyone ever tell you, your eyes hold great wisdom?" she suddenly said.
Atsuko raised an eyebrow, "heh?" she said, oddified.
Michiyo leant in and kissed Atsuko's forehead. Atsuko stood up, "Okay, i dont know whats with you, but you seem like you've taken too much valium, how about taking a nap?" she suggested.
Michiyo nodded. "Oh-kayy" she said, smiling dopily. Atsuko left the room, and looked back at the young woman sleeping there, she found herself smiling.
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"OH GODDAMN!" Miki cussed as she had just slammed her toe into the side of the dresser. a few swear words followed as she stubbed out the cigarette she was smoking on the windowsill and closed the window. Just as a knock came at her dressing room door. "what is it?!" she said blatantly. She turned round and saw 2 heavenly creatures standing at her door. "uh. hi..." she stumbled over her words.
"Hi! you dont really know me, but my name is Rika, Aya here told me all about you!, you are quite pretty indeed!" she said, holding out a friendly hand and a friendly smile followed. Miki quickly gained composure. "Aya, you been talking about me?" Aya blushed profusely.
"Oh shoot girls, i gotta go!" Rika exclaimed, "dance rehearsals any minute!" she ran down the corridoor with her heels clacking as she went.
"What a lovely girl" Miki exclaimed. She looked Aya up and down "so, you want to come in for some sweets?" she said suggestively.
Aya looked down, "i cant, im getting a facial in like, 15 minutes, but maybe later?" She said, as she began to walk away, "bye Mikitty!" she said, "Nyao!"
Miki felt frustrated, she wanted that woman so much, but every time she got close, Aya would come up with some excuse that she had to improve her looks, or her health, or her body, or whatever! Miki was getting sick of it. She grabbed her phone and flipped it open to look at all the Hello! Pro phone numbers Aya had given her. She scanned through them and found a name that appealed to her. She hit Call.
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1:39pm
A performance had long finished and Hitomi was sitting in her room, indulging on little bars of sweet. Not the best for her, but her long compensating feelings means she couldnt stop herself. A knock came at the door and Hitomi shoved the bar under her pillow. It was Ayaka, sweet-smelling, sweet-looking, candy perfume girl Ayaka. She was wearing these awesome yellow knee-high socks that made her look even sweeter. "Hi Hitomi" She said, "can i come in?"
Hitomi nodded, Ayaka came in and shut the door, which worried her a little bit. "Yuu AA Rookingu berri puritti chudei!" Hitomi sputtered out, english always impressed Ayaka. Who beamed brightly.
"Very good!" she said in perfect english. "But thats not what i'm here for" her face went serious.
"Hitomi, I know you like girls" she said bluntly. Hitomi's head went into overdrive.
"You know?! i mean...i dont!....i mean...umm" she felt her embarrasment rise. Ayaka shook her head,
"dont feel embarassed, you want to know a secret?" she said as she sat very close to Hitomi on her bed.
"I like girls too" she whispered in Hitomi's ear, sending a chill down her spine. She then bit slowly on the top of her ear. Hitomi gasped, half in surprise, half in pure adrenalin. Ayaka looked straight into Hitomi's eyes with a look of desire on her face. She leaned in and kissed her, and Hitomi didnt try and stop her. Her lips tasted like sugar, and Hitomi felt Ayaka's tongue enter her mouth. She massaged it with her own. The feeling made her head swim. Hitomi neglected to realize that, Rumours spread like wildfire within the Hello! Pro.
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2:33pm
"Grr!!! we'll show you!!" Makoto grabbed Risa's arm and ran down the hall until she felt like her chest was going to explode. "What was that about?" Risa asked.
"Didnt you hear? Iida-san, Yaguchi-san, Kei-chan and Rika talking about us?" Makoto said.
Risa's face went white. "really?! what were they saying?" Makoto looked back.
"they were saying stuff like 'i wonder who will pair up with who?'" Risa's eyes went wide.
"wow, i didnt realize so many people in this record company were you know, that way" Makoto looked at her shoes.
"I kind of am though...i think...maybe" Makoto said.
"I know." Risa said bluntly. "its so damn obvious" She finished. Makoto laughed at her honesty. Airin and Konno were walking around the corner, harmonizing the new single. "I got a good line in the new single too!" Risa said happily. Makoto felt jealousy, all she got was a rap line, when the other 3 got substantial roles. Airin and Konno stopped,
"hey, do you ever get the feeling that the others are kind of..." Airin started.
"ganging up on us?" Risa finished.
"YES!" the other 3 said, almost in unison. Aibon and Nono walked past at that instant, linking arms and giggling like maniacs. Nozomi pointed at one of the 5th gen and aibon laughed, as they skipped off.
"like that! we have been in this band for almost 6 months and we arent getting any respect" Asami exclaimed. They all nodded. "Well maybe we should get some!!" Makoto said, slamming her fist into her other hand. There was a plan-a-brewing.
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3:04pm
Rika went to her phone, which she hadnt checked all day. There was one missed call on it. She rang it back and a melodic voice picked up. "Hello?"
"Hi! who is this? you rang me before?" Rika said happily.
"Oh, right, its me, Fujimoto Miki" she said blandly.
"Oh! do you want me to come and see you?" Rika asked excitedly.
"No no thats okay" Miki said, until she realized she was talking into a beeping phone. Rika had already hung up and was on her way over.
Miki freaked out. She turned off the TV, made the bed and threw her plastic ashtray out the window, where she heard an 'OW!'
"sorry!" she exclaimed.
There was a cutesy knock at the door. Miki answered it, trying to look as good as possible. Rika was standing there, with that adorable smile on her face. "Hi, come in" Miki said, sounding confident, yet shaken. Rika came in and sat on the bed. "Whats the problem?" she asked.
Miki thought to herself 'well im so damn horny and you are a fine and sexy girl'
"um, no problem" she said, sitting next to Rika on the bed. Rika found it a bit close and found herself moving away a bit, to which Miki moved even closer. "i just wanted to give you something" Miki leant in, until Rika could feel her hot breath near her lips. She was too scared to move away. So Miki kissed her, it began to get heated until Rika jumped up.
"what are you doing?!" she said, wiping her lips. "I dont like girls!"
"It seems to me you like girls very much" Miki muttered under her breath.
'what?!" Rika said.
"Nothing, okay, i just feel an attraction to you, and what i want, i usually get" she said as she crossed her arms.
"well your not getting me!, and dont tell anyone about this!" Rika said as she opened the door and slammed it behind her.
Miki smirked 'anyone? or everyone?' she thought to herself.
Its time to shake down the walls of Ishikawa Rika.
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NEXT UP: In My Dreams Volume 1! |
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